Things are changing
March 23rd 2010 02:32
I've seen a lot in the past few months. One of the reasons that I started this site is because I felt I had a lot to nitpick about... I did and I am beginning to see the reasons for it.
One thing I have learned is the importance of nitpicking - not just for the sake of picking at self or others - but a focused approached to unravelling life. It feels a bit like nitpicking at everything at times, but the usefulness of it is that I understand myself more fluidly now. Not completely, but I can see the linking of one incident to the next and how that has affected my full life cycle.
There is also a sense that we should not worry so much and just get on with it. However I have discovered the difficulty of just getting on with it when we are carrying so much of the past with us through repression. If your childhood was like mine then you were forced to repress much of what you thought. This may have been through your parents active participation in teaching you to repress or it may have been through their judgment of you and your inability to look outside the home for other points of view (as most child would struggle with). It can also be that they teach through their own actions. Mine did. One level they were so effective in repressing their emotional reactions to life that any chance to speak about my perspectives, ways of healing, different points of view they could take - were all beaten back. So I had to shut my mouth and keep quiet.
What happens though when one wants more from life is that they have to fight that voice telling them to be quiet and not upset the apple cart. My parents held such strong perspectives about stability through silence and not looking, that their apple cart was very unstable and the smallest of comments would send it all rolling!!
Unfortunately they haven't changed much. I however no longer wish to live by such rules and am picking my way through my past!!
My advice today: Look within yourself and pick a bit!
One thing I have learned is the importance of nitpicking - not just for the sake of picking at self or others - but a focused approached to unravelling life. It feels a bit like nitpicking at everything at times, but the usefulness of it is that I understand myself more fluidly now. Not completely, but I can see the linking of one incident to the next and how that has affected my full life cycle.
What happens though when one wants more from life is that they have to fight that voice telling them to be quiet and not upset the apple cart. My parents held such strong perspectives about stability through silence and not looking, that their apple cart was very unstable and the smallest of comments would send it all rolling!!
Unfortunately they haven't changed much. I however no longer wish to live by such rules and am picking my way through my past!!
My advice today: Look within yourself and pick a bit!
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